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Last couple weeks have been really cool. Started out with a trip to NYC.... which was insane. Definitely fell in love with that city. Then went with my boy to Jville to see him spin at some show. That was really cool, but I decided that there is nothing in jacksonville and I really never wish to spend three days there ever again. While in the big J, i decided to get a hair cut... I came out looking like bon jovi from the eighties. BIG FEATHERED MULLET!... ughh...

on a love note, things with Kevin are going alright. I thought we might of hit a rocky moment, but it blew over. Our two year anniversary is coming up... I can't believe how fast the time has gone by.

Went out to the Laundry bar last night. That was a lot of fun... ended up seeing a friend of the lady who I baby sit for. I was trying my hardest to avoid him... I really hope he did not recognize me. I do not need Brit giving me a lecture on under age drinking.

Hmmm... I just got back from  this hour and twenty minute bike ride. It was insanely hot... but it felt really good to be out there. I think I have lost every bit of muscle in my body over this past year.. time to get into shape.

 I have been feeling sort of blah lately... about the fact that i just don't do anything. I used to play drums and that consumed a lot of time and it felt like I was actually putting hours of my life into something worth while. Before drumming I skateboarded and before that i was a gymnast. I just don't know what to sink my teeth into. I am good at art... but everytime I try and take time on drawing something... I get bored or I have no inspiration. ehh.. I suppose I will find something eventually. 

Yesterday suckkkeeeddd!!!! I had to wake up at six and go baby sit for Lisa until 2. Right after that I had to rush from Cooper City down to Miami to go pick up Reice, in the worst storm I have seen in a long time. By the time I finally made it home, I was so tired I could hardly move. I told myself I would only take a short nap so I would have enough energy to go out and party. I ended up waking up when I wanted but I woke up sick as fuck. Luckily Kevin didn't feel like going out at that point either, so we just made a pizza and watched Sopranos...  Woke up this morning still sick as fuck. I had this major plan to bike ride from my house to the beach on 125th street today. I think that journey is like 14 miles. Hopefully I will feel up to it tomorrow.

Sooo... I am going to NYC on the 21st, and I set a goal to lose 5-10 pounds by then. That's never going to happen. I am living like a frat boy. All we have been doing lately is drinking beer and eating pizza.

I need to feel better ASAP!

So I was a bit on the pissy side yesterday. Today seems to be a bit brighter. I sort of confronted one of the major issues  that was getting to me, and now maybe after a little bit of time, everything will go back to normal.  Which is a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.

I need to get to the mall today. I am on the hunt for stylish summer dresses that do not cost much. Doubt I will have any luck, especially shopping in Adventura... But  nothing will bring me down today! I have the entire day off to do absolutely what ever I please.

Kevin and I started watching the Sopranos from season one and I have become so addicted that I can't stand it. Tony's mom is sadly an exact replica of my grandmother. It's scary. I can't wait to just finish the freaking series! I need my life back. Every  night I have been coming home, smoking, watching sopranos, and eating.

Can't wait for tomorrow. Fridays = Laundry bar, tequila, and fun people. I neeeeed this weekend of fun!

So it's been about a year since my last entry.
Let's see... I am in college, I live with my boy friend and I have been in a committed relationship for almost two years.

I am at a crossroads in my life. Something has come up, a little kink I guess you could call it. I am not sure what to do. Do I just take what has happened lightly or do I wash my hands of the entire situation? Being stressed out really is a bummer. My life is kind of getting to me and all the issues revolving around my father need to stop.

I used to be excited about getting older. Getting older for me has been all about the struggle to make a dollar and I seem to be stressed out all the time. Stress is exhausting. But now I wish I would of just taken advantage of being a teenager.

I have been living a pretty mundane life lately.
I don't confide in anyone like I used to. I don't trust just anyone anymore.
I have pushed everyone who cared for me, completely out of my life.
How can I be ok with all of this? I don't know. But I seem to be.
I have nothing, but have so much. It's completely indescribable.
My life has changed so much in the last year.
I don't understand why, but I guess that happens.
All these changes have done nothing but made me happy.
Took a while, but I'm happier now than I can ever remember being.
That's such an amazing feeling.

I bought a fish when I was 16, named him Bruce.
He died. Ughhh....

So I'm back from the cruise. The weather was shitty and everything was very expensive. I was old enough to buy my own liquor on the cruise, and you better believe I did. It was pretty boring all day due to bad weather, but as soon as it turned 10:00 the cruise ship turned into South Beach, it was fucking cool. All my cousins were over 18, so it was a constant party.
Jamaica was pretty shitty. I was very disappointed.

Had a pretty chill New Year's Eve... ended up in Kendall, but I enjoyed myself. :)

It's 2006 already.
That's exciting, hope it's better than '05.
I graduate this year. I cannot wait.
I also turn 19. Kind of scary, getting old.
and... It's my live journals birthday today.

Oh man... Noel said something about cheap clothes and marshalls... and I forgot how he worded it.. but I told him i was going to make a post out of it... so.. BAM... here's the post.

I hate it when people drive slowly in the fast lane.
Or...
Say you're on your way to the cashier with one or two items in your hand, and out of the corner of your eye you see someone rushing, w/ 34 items, to get in front of you ... and I mean ... they always get in front of you.

Haha... So I was in the doctors office...
The people sitting across from us were totally Jewish.. I mean... Long skirts... long shirts.... very orthodox jew looking... and My mom was making conversation w/ them.. and they said they live in North Miami. (Very highly Jewish Area) and... they just moved from Israel. (Another hint that they just might be Jewish)... As they were getting up to leave, my mom says, "Merry Christmas"... Classic.

So...
I'm sick and my back is fucked.

Wo. Haven't been on here in forever. Myspace has gotten lame. To many disgusting men. Ew. makes me wanna vomit a little.
Hurricane days.
Pretty sweet. Getting tired of eating/doing nothing all day long though.
I did a lot of chilling. A lot of cooking. A lot of driving. lot of tagging. Hurricane was pretty sweet.
Anyway. Really behind in online classes. I have no excuse.
Can't wait to fucking graduate. I have never been over something more in my entire life.
I should have planned and graduated last year. Goddamnit.
I'm still mad happy. That pleases me.
but. My sister has power now ... why is she still at my house?

I'm very happy.
The password for my livejournal is rediculous.
I can't wait for marching season to be over.
I can't help but smile all the time.
This feeling is amazing.

Haven't updated in forever. Ughh... it just doesn't feel the same anymore.
Well...
So much stuff going on!!!!!

Damn.
I just got a card in the mail... and on the front it says.."You're 18 today!"
Scary.

The S the U the P the E the R.. the S the H the A the R the P...the S the H the O the O the T the E the R... the S the U the P the E the R... super super sharp sharp super sharp super sharp shooter super sharp...
Haha.. i think that is a badass song.

Anyhow... Practice tonight. We did ensemble for two hours ... followed by an hours worth of chats. I didn't mind. I just wish there was 100% attendance for the chats.
So the next four days ... is consumed by band.

I stayed up until 4:30 last night chattin with asif.

I wish I knew how to put pictures up on here.…
My space is way cooler sometimes.

............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... That's how I feel about all of this. Thankyou very much.

Hmmm.. so weddings suck.
When I get married... I hope I am so madly in love with my husband. Like the type of love that never dies or loses it's fire. That would be so awesome. Worryless/stress free love. Yeah... That would be perfect.
It will happen one day.
Anywayz........
So... my mom sent me to Dorris' Italian Deli today... She's havin' some ladies over.. and they need desert. I bought a mad supply of cannoli's, eclairs... crazy good cheese cakes. Man.. there cannolis own. $1.75... and they taste like heaven. Mmmmmm.... :)

I had an insanely intense dream last night.
I woke up all sweaty and exhausted. Yuck.
Fought with my Mom last night... Weird ... because we never... "fight"
Fourth hour today, what's up w/ that?
I'm sorry.. I can't take anything serious when I stand next to a 14 year old...when the boy in the pit is always yelling out random shit ... and everyone is always so fuckin' giddy... Nope... W/e... I suppose I should try.